this is dedicated to a friend whose problems seems just won't stop piling up. this is to let u know that even if theres none who would be by your side, know that i will. for a friend who had stood by my side for the longest time. i may not be a good problem solver but ill try to help u in any way possible. cause u are here for me when in times in need, ill be there for u always. =][=

"The Closest Thing"

You're the words that come out easy,
And I am speechless at best.
Your star it seems to shine above the rest.
You're the face before the cameras,
The smile i'd like to earn.
The closest thing to perfect,
In a hollywood to burn.
You're the beauty that is deeper,
Than eyes can merely see.
The closest thing to perfect.
But the farthest thing from me.

[Chorus: x2]
I'd love to be,
The shoulder that you cry on.
I'd love to be,
The friend you call when things are great.

You're the dream that hasn't ended,
And I'm still anxious for rest.
Your words they seem to hang above my head.
You're the bud before the flower,
Unfurls into full bloom.
Captivating beauty,
But it maybe all too soon.
You're the song that writes a story,
But leaves a lot to read.
The closest thing to perfect,
But the farthest thing from me.

[Chorus x2]

And like I really deserve a chance to,
Sit across the table,
And tell you that I think you're wonderful.
And I think you're something special.
I guess this is my only chance to,
Say I wish I knew you,
Because I'm sure you're wonderful,
If I'd get to know you

~the juliana theory

Come along, follow me, as I lead through the darkness
As I provide just enough spark that we need to proceed
Carry on, give me hope, give me strength
Come with me, and I wont steer you wrong
Put your faith in your trust, as I guide us through the fog
To the light at the end of the tunnel we gon’ fight
We gon’ charge, we gon’ stomp
We gon’ march through the swamp
We gon’ marsh through the mosh
Take us right through the doors
Come on..

~eminem // mosh.

Let’s get fucked up and die.
I’m speaking figuratively, of course.
Like the last time that I committed suicide,
Social suicide.
Yeah so I’m already dead, on the inside,
But I can still pretend.
With my memories and photographs,
I’ve learned to love the lie.

I wanna know what it’s like to be awkward and innocent, not belligerent.
I wanna know how it feels to be useful and pertinent and have common sense, yeah.
Let me in,
Let me in to the club.
Cause I wanna belong,
And I need to get strong.
And if memory serves.
I’m addicted to words and they’re useless.

Let’s get fucked up and die.
I’m riding hard on the last lines of every lie.
And the vehement spike of my life is about to explode,
I’m about to explode.
I’m a mess, I’m a wreck.
I am perfect and I have learned to accept:
All my problems and short comings,
Cause I am so visceral yet deeply inept.

I want to thank you for being a part of my Forget-Me-Nots and Marigolds,
And all the things that don’t get old.
Is it legal to do this?
I surely don’t know.
It’s the only way I have learned to express myself.
Through other peoples’ descriptions of life.
I’m afraid I’m alone and entirely useless.

(In this department)

Let’s get fucked up and die.
For the last time with feeling,
We’ll try not to smile.
As we cover our heads and drink heavily into the night,
That’s no shock and surprise.
I believe that I can overcome this and beat everything in the end.
But I choose to abuse for the time being.
Maybe I’ll win, but for now I’ve decided to die.

Sister Soldier you’ve been such a positive influence on my mental frame.
If I could ever repay you I would but I’m hard up for cash,
And my memory lacks initiative.
Goddamn the liquor store’s closed.
We’re so close to scoring.
It hurts, it destroys, ’till it kills.
I am tired and hungry and totally useless.

(In this department)

let me up
Let me out
I am suffocating
I can't live without
This all behind me
Is this almost over now?

the longest night my darkest hour
Where you will find me
Paralyzed and dying
From the truth

You left me at the altar
My heart in my hand
I am tired and broken
Haunted by memories of
The life you've stolen
I am tired and broken

You left me at the altar
My heart in my hand
(YOU LEFT ME!)
In my hand…
(YOU LEFT ME!)
(AND I WON'T FORGET!)

Let me out, let me out
Lips are trembling as i cannot make a sound
(my love betrays me)
Is it almost over now
the walls caved in, the roof fell down
And I am finally
Tired of the lying
And the cloud that follows you…

You left me at the altar
My heart in my hand
I am tired and broken
Haunted by memories of
The life you've stolen

I am tired and broken
You left me at the altar
My heart in my hand
(YOU LEFT ME!)
(AND I WON'T FORGET!)
In my hand…
(YOU LEFT ME WITH MY HEART.. IN.. MY.. HAND!)
(I WON'T FORGET!)

You left me breathless
You left me scared
But you're all that never kept me wrong
WHEN YOU WERE HERE!

And now my only hope is to take back what you've stolen
My life will go on without you…
And now my only hope is to take back what you've stolen
MY LIFE WILL GO ON WITHOUT YOU!

You left me at the altar
My heart in my hand
I am tired and broken
Haunted by memories of
The life you've stolen
You've stolen…
You've stolen…
(You left me in the end)
You've stolen…
(I WILL NOT FORGET!)

You better open the door before I take a hammer to the walls around it. I cannot let you inside my cell for fear I'll sink the ship and drag us both down.

Our hell ends every weekend But it's all I have to believe in.[x2]

Matt makes his murderous demand: foreign films. I take a stand and it's all uphill from here (at least I hope so). Kate claims she can't depend on me for anything and I agree It's crystal clear. I reach for the bottle and disappear.

Our hell ends every weekend But it's all I have to believe in. [x2]

Frank fails to see the humor in my sad attempts at breakdancing in every bar along Lyndale Avenue. Liz likes to liquor up my thoughts from the C.C. Club to the Triple Rock There's no escape from the chorus of people screaming: You better open the door before I take a hammer to the walls around it. I cannot let you inside my cell for fear I'll sink the ship and drag us both down.

Our hell ends every weekend But it's all I have to believe in. [x2]

I'll swim backwards [x6].

I'll swim alone the long goodbye. You better open the door before I take a hammer to the walls around it. I cannot let you inside my cell for fear i'll sink the ship and drag us both down.

Did you really think that it was over                                                                      when you hung up the phone and said goodnight?                                                     And did you ever think that it would be too much?                                                       I can't leave without saying goodbye.                                                                       So did you really think that you could take it?                                                          Could you make it alone tonight?                                                                               I never could have hoped for anything more.                                                             Be my angel if you can, alright.                                                                              You always say goodnight, and you always say goodnight.                                         So baby did you sleep an hour for me?                                                                  How I wish I was there right now.                                                                              I wasn't going to tell you I could change things.                                                       I'm afraid I never will know how.                                                                             But I don't really think that I can take it.                                                                 Will I make it alone somehow?                                                                                 So hold me in your arms before I leave you.                                                              I'll be back as soon as time allows.                                                                         You always say goodnight, and you always say goodnight.                               Goodnight.