random darkness
Just another random suicidesArchive for feeling shit.
BLACKNESS ALL AROUND
What a day. Fuck man. Firstly, morning when i was doing top terminal, Bruce told me off. SAid that if he was’nt there at thetime when he was, the guests would have gotten injured and roll off the conveyor. What a fuck man. I know what im doing ok. Then right after that, some stupid ppl, when told to get off the chair still dilly dally and almost hit the conveyor again. And worst part is, Bruce is there again. What a fuck. And the best part for teh whole day was when some realllllly STOOPID Indians rammed at me at full force and knock me out when i was standing behind the padding at patrol beside the umbrella. WHAT A FUCK!!
It hit my shins, and got a nasty bruise. Well, i might have worried some people. Guess I’ll have to assure them that ill be alrite. I could still laugh so yea. It takes more than just a forceful ram to kill me. Hahas. What i really wanna say is thanx or your concern everyone. Celeste, Yimin. Yea. Really, appreciate it alot. And one last thanks to Joey. Without her taking good care of me when I was In NUH, I’d be like a walking gong gong. yea. Hahas.
Well again I stress, Im alrite. Ill be fine. And THANK YOU TO EVERYONE. SORRY TO WORRY U ALL!!
MONEY AND PRETTY FACES
I think girls are attracted to money, pretty face rather than kindness. Well. I doubt kindness has a meaning for anyone for that matter nowadays. Kindness brings you no where. The gift of being kind : none. I HATE THESE TYPE OF GIRLS.
cause sometimes i wonder
sometimes i wonder. if i had been played around.
sometimes i wonder. if anyone would have feelings for me.
sometimes i wonder. who would really take me seriously.
sometimes i wonder. and i wonder. and i wonder. and i wonder…
Cause sometimes, I just wonder.
DOUBLE STANDARDS
Fuck la. Cheebye. Wild Wild Wet just terminated my contract without even informing me. I had wanted to work this saturday and so i called Fida to book for me only to be told that my names not listed anymore. what teh fuck sia. its only been a couple of months i did’nt return there. There’s a whole lot more people who hasn’t return and still have their jobs wat. Why the double standards? FUCK MAN.
MONEY NOT ENOUGH!
GRAH!!! I’M so dead!! I ordered an XBOX 360 and now realised taht i don’t have enuf money to pay for it!! ARGH!! I’m So damn stressed!! I want it badly! It’s so freakin cheap! it’s like half the price of the normal market rate outside. JUST only $330!! tahst liek half the price! But, what the hell, My pay will only be around $300. FUCK!!!!! SOMEBODY HELP ME PLEASE! I’LL PROMISE TO PAY BACK! I SWEAR!!
Gonna ask Ivan and Co. to help me..
Ask mummy to pay back my money as well… grah..!!
EX MARKS THE SPOT
Well Sharon, yesterday drop a bomber on me. She told me that she still has feelings for her ex.Wat a bummer. So now IM CONFUSED! Ask her if ever she got a chance to patch up, she said yes definately. Double Bummer!!Thing is she said its impossible to patch wit him la now. So a good thing maybe? Well im definately in love with her. Yea like seriously. I’ll give my all to her la. Whatever u interpret that is la.
Aiya I’m like so stressed now. Dunno what to do. My brain is like seriously lagging in these kinda matters. I like love her alot! I wonder if she knows how i really feel about her.Sigh. Wah cannot tahan. Like this I die.
Okay, Should I be happy that she told me? I mean, Shes honest with me, so does that mean she trust me? Or is she hinting that maybe she is better off without me?
Oie ART!
THINK POSITIVE!!!
THINK POSITIVE!!!
I don’t wanna lose her. And i know that if given a chance, I’ll be just as good as her ex is. But I dun’t wanna be liek a stalker though. ARGH!!!
Y ME?!
THINK POSITIVE!!!
my heart is aching.
Okay, A confession!
SHARON IF URE READING THIS,
IM IN LOVE WITH YOU EVERYDAY AND EVERYNIGHT, EVERY HOUR EVERY MINUTE AND EVERY SECOND THAT I AM ALIVE!! I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, AND I DONT EVER WANNA LOSE YOU!!!
SQUARE ZERO
Was real happy managed to talk with Sharon just now. Well it was’nt much but at least its something. At least it seems like she was’nt hurt or anything. Im thankful for that.
But somehow abt half an hour later, seems like I made he mad. And its all because of a single MSN display pic. Im not really sure if this is true but Im guessing it is coz right after i said i had a hard time getting the pic which she told me to change and i dunt want to. She suddenly log off. and its not even 5 mins of the time spent online..
Tried msging her and all.. no reply… sigh.. back to square one.. well more like square zero. Right off the board. Grah! Sigh.. Why is this happeneing!!!
I WANT PEACE!
Have’nt been able to hold a conversation with mum lately. Its irritating really. Telling me to do what I DON’T wanna do. I basically just wanna relax at home, chilling.But mum, no no no, work work work is all she can think off. Hey, please Im not in the army anymore. I want time to slack! I want MY time. Where the hell is my time? har? I don’t have one do I? FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!! Seriously why do people just LOVE to annoy me ar? DID I DO SOMETHING TO ANNOY U ALL?? FUCK U! I WAS AT MY OWN TIME AND AT MY OWN SPACE, SO HOW THE FUCK COULD I ANNOY YOU!
Anyway, back to mum. I just got a job at my old place Sentosa Luge. SO HOPEFULLY, NOW, YOU’LL SHUT THE HELL UP AND LEAVE ME ALONE. Let a dude have his peace man… sheesh. And I wanna go NAFA. WHY CAN”T I GO NAFA MUM?! WHY CAN’T I DO SOMETHING THAT INTREST ME RATHER THAN YOU?!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!
ONE WORD: FUCK
Damn. That football match yesterday left my body aching all over. The last time it ached this much was prolly BMT. Fuck me for not doing warm-ups. Fuck me for running around like a mad man and losing possession everytime i got the ball. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK.
Football is tiring.
Has’nt been blogging lately. Was Busy. Yaa as if. Like real. Its more like Im too lazy to blog. No. Thats not it. Its ‘coz for the past few days there has’nt really been any interesting things to blog about. Yea well, welcome to my world. Boring as usual.
But today, a lil different. Theres this football match between Escape Theme Park and Wild Wild Wet. Taufiq called me to play saying there isn’t much people. What a liar. Theres more than enough! Hmph!
Thing is, I have’nt been playing football on field for like, what? Three years? Yea. So as u can guess.. I suck. As much as they praise me on court, I totally suck in field play. As they can see just a whiel ago. Must have been a shock to them.
Right mid. Way tiring. I can’t even run now. Played like 20 mins and i got subbed =/ . Yea. What the hell was I doing anyway??!! Trying to show off my skills or something?? HELLO?! You cant even trap the ball for goodness sake! FUCK!! That was disappointing. No, it really is.Sigh.
We won anyway. Two to nothing. And I did nothing other than giving teh ball away everytime. Sigh.
