Humans can be so oblivious to their surrounding sometimes. Hell, they are oblivious most of the time, and this, I wanna talk about the ugly side of my people. Don’t you ever believe that Singaporeans are gd mannered and courtious.

 Truth is, we are sad sadistic and selfish pigs who could’nt see that a pregnant lady on board can’t even get a seat. Why Singapore? why?! The moment the lady stepped into the train, people starts to ignore the fact, and incur that maybe she’s just fat. Denying the baby inside.  Like what the hell?! She’s prolly 7 to eight months pregnant guys!! C’mon guys.. Even a 23 year old like me could see that that!!

 Her tummy was big and bulging and she seemed to be supporting it with hands, as though that would help in any way possible. I waited. And i wait to see who would be willing to give up their seat for the poor lady. Unfortunately my patience runs out when most of them just pretend they didnt see her, pretend to fall asleep all of a sudden, reading the newspaper. I had to tell them off, its remarkable when after that the guy, looked at me, and said thank you.

 Like what. Why should you be saying thank you. It baffles me to know that alot of singaporeans are like these. Never ever belive when u hears that Singaporeans are caring and courtious. NEVER.

The week went from bad to worse and it ended with a bullet through my fragile heart, as everything that that ive hoped for, wished for, perished without me having the slightest idea of whats going on.

Love as people may say is blind. Love is undeniable as it is unexplainable. For so long that Ive chased, this is the first time I knew about her feelings for me. Even though Ive confessed indefinately, all of which were serious confessions, I was brushed aside.It made me wonder wat she thinks of me. But now i know. Sure Ive gone out with alot of girls, thing is, I had only one in mind, and when this happened, a quote from her :-

“Nt bad gt new target eh. Gd 4 u,”

I couldnt hold back, I had to cry. And so I cried, tears flowed down like the Niagara Falls, all alone at home, my heart torn to shreds. Not knowing what I should do next. For the first time in my life, I tink I really, really like someone. And I like her. I wish to reconcile but sigh.

Everythings been a big misunderstanding. I want to make clear to her that shes the one for me, the one Ive decided on. Sharon, I hope you forgive me, for whatever things that might have hurt you in any way. I like u a whole lot more than enyne else. Im not kidding when i say that. Im in love with you. So please, dont go…

Train service got disrupted today morning at Kovan. ANd Sbs handled it pretty pretty badly. And of coz I was late as a result and wasnt able to attend evac practice. Surreal? u decide. It sounded liek im makin excuses to cover my ass but hell no! this is the truth! but seriously, howcan they have not as many shuttle buses to carry us off. Its ridiculous to say the least. And singaporeans being singaporeans, kiasu is an understatement. People wee fighting to get in the buses.Pushing and shoving. Elderlys were not spared either. Its sad how SBS handles teh whole thing evben if its an emergency. The bus conductors and captains didnt have the initiative to call for backup resources. And so what iof the shuttle buses were free. I have to travel to harbor front and I still need to tap in and out.If thast free, then its great. But if its not, and coz of this, which i tink is quite a big incident, SBS is makin money out of our expenses. Isnt that just add pain to the wound. Im late and prolly will get fucked by richards and frends. Coz MRT breakdown isnt everyday and of coz people wouldnt believe it. Sigh what a start of a day. Already yesterday was tiring enoughcoz of the Public hols.And now this. Its noinsensical at the very highest level. HAd just 5hrs of slp. Explanations? i dunt ned em. Damage was already done.

I feel like being abondoned, everything moves too fast, too sudden. By my best friend, my good friend and my freind. Im at my wits end trying to figure out what has happened, was\t has gone wrong. At the same timerighting the wrong things. Birds are singing, my heart heres screamin. I need help.

While on the way home in the train, this gerl, in green top and denim shorts, really caught my eye. Its not taht her beauty that facinates me but rather how hyper she was back then. She totally looked the artsy type with her messy hair and her extra big drawing pad together with her heavy totem bag full of art friends items. We graced at each other and smile a couple of times and before i noticed it, she was sketeching me. Up and down, up and down she looked. She drew well, but unfortunately didnt get to see the final piece.But  thats alrite, maybe one day, a day just like this, a day of incidences, might happened again. And then, Ill be sure to ask her name, her number and of coz, the final piece aswell. We would be great art partners im sure of it. smiles.