random darkness
Just another random suicidesArchive for August, 2006
SQUARE ZERO
Was real happy managed to talk with Sharon just now. Well it was’nt much but at least its something. At least it seems like she was’nt hurt or anything. Im thankful for that.
But somehow abt half an hour later, seems like I made he mad. And its all because of a single MSN display pic. Im not really sure if this is true but Im guessing it is coz right after i said i had a hard time getting the pic which she told me to change and i dunt want to. She suddenly log off. and its not even 5 mins of the time spent online..
Tried msging her and all.. no reply… sigh.. back to square one.. well more like square zero. Right off the board. Grah! Sigh.. Why is this happeneing!!!
Saturday through Sunday,Monday, Monday through Sunday yo.
Been busy lately. Thats prolly one of the reasons for me not been blogging so much nowadays. Yea. Busy with work, of course. What else could it be? Lets see, Monday to Friday, working at Luge, Saturday,Sunday, I’m working at Wild Wild Wet. Busy shit. Yea.
Had a ball of a time working at Luge though. But well, if anything falters, at least i have Wild WIld Wet to fall back on. Thats why I did’nt quit it. Smart eh? Hahas. Well both are about the same I suppose in terms of job scope. Hmm. Yea. Kinda tired. I’ll blog again soon.
MY WORTH
WHAT THE FUCK?! Just as I thought I had landed a job, another stupid incident have to happened. Fuckin Lindon prolly throws away my resignation letter. What he have said to Bruce have tarnished my image really bad. It’s really gonna be hard for me now. I’ve like got a month to prove my worth here. Lindon DEFINATELY dose’nt like me working there. I mean he’s obviously trying to get Bruce to fire me and bla bla bla. This is pissing me off. Coz of this incident Rab had to suck Bruce dick to get me reinstated. I mean, will it be awkward now? I hope not. Coz I love working here, guys are funny, girls are prety and I get along very well with them. Indeed.
My weakness:-
- not outgoing enough. BAH! WHAT THE FUCK?!
- Dose’nt smile. The theory is if u smile, guests will return them back, hence enjoying their stay here.
FUCK THAT MAN! I know the importance of communicating with the guests alrite. You don’t have to tell me. And ive always makes the guests to smile back. So dose’nt that makes me smile alot and being outgoing and all?? Geez Louis man… SIgh.
It’s gonna be difficult la like this. Spotlights gonna be on me from today onwards. Blardy Cockenardens.. But! BUT! BUTTTTT!! I’ll bounce back greater than ever. I’ll be the best that theyre gonna regret what they’ve done to incur my wrath! Nah kiddin. But i’ll be the best operator there is! AAAARRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANT PEACE!
Have’nt been able to hold a conversation with mum lately. Its irritating really. Telling me to do what I DON’T wanna do. I basically just wanna relax at home, chilling.But mum, no no no, work work work is all she can think off. Hey, please Im not in the army anymore. I want time to slack! I want MY time. Where the hell is my time? har? I don’t have one do I? FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!! Seriously why do people just LOVE to annoy me ar? DID I DO SOMETHING TO ANNOY U ALL?? FUCK U! I WAS AT MY OWN TIME AND AT MY OWN SPACE, SO HOW THE FUCK COULD I ANNOY YOU!
Anyway, back to mum. I just got a job at my old place Sentosa Luge. SO HOPEFULLY, NOW, YOU’LL SHUT THE HELL UP AND LEAVE ME ALONE. Let a dude have his peace man… sheesh. And I wanna go NAFA. WHY CAN”T I GO NAFA MUM?! WHY CAN’T I DO SOMETHING THAT INTREST ME RATHER THAN YOU?!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!
IM A SUPREME GENIUS
| Your Birthdate: June 1 |
 You are a natural born leader, even if those leadership talents haven’t been developed yet. You have the power and self confidence to succeed in life, and your power grows daily. Besides power, you also have a great deal of creativity that enables you to innovate instead of fail. You are a visionary, seeing the big picture instead of all of the trivial little details.Your strength: Your supreme genius Your weakness: Your inappropriate sensitivity Your power color: Gold Your power symbol: Star Your power month: January |
What Does Your Birth Date Mean?
I’m a born leader. Umm nope. Not exactly. No, more like not at all. If it hadnt been develop yet , i wonder when it will. Wait till I’m 50 or something? Then whats the point? By that age, I think ill be cradling at home, rotting, waiting for my time. Ooh!I have power! Know what? I think ill be a dictator or somethin close. I’ll lead people. I’ll have power! And besides, I’m a genius which I’m not by the way. but who knows. Maybe this is just my thinking and not teh rest of the world. And i hate gold. So how could that be my power color?! what the hell?! What the fuck?!
THE INSIPIDNESS OF YOUTUBE.COM
STUPID YOUTUBE!! I CAN’T LOG IN! HOW LONG ARE THEY GONNA DO THE MAINTAINANCE ANYWAY? ITS BEEN TWO FULL DAYS. THATS 48 HOURS! WAY TOO LONG FOR A MAINTAINANCE I THINK.
diary of jane // breaking benjamin
If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?
And I don’t mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I’ll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?
NO!!
Something’s getting in the way
Something’s just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be
Try to find out what makes you tick
As I lie down
Sore and sick
Do you like that?
Do you like that?
There’s a fine line between love and hate
And I don’t mind
Just let me say that I like that
I like that
Something’s getting in the way
Something’s just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be
Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love
Die for anyone
What have I become
Something’s getting in the way
Something’s just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place
In the diary of Jane
ONE WORD: FUCK
Damn. That football match yesterday left my body aching all over. The last time it ached this much was prolly BMT. Fuck me for not doing warm-ups. Fuck me for running around like a mad man and losing possession everytime i got the ball. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK.
Football is tiring.
Has’nt been blogging lately. Was Busy. Yaa as if. Like real. Its more like Im too lazy to blog. No. Thats not it. Its ‘coz for the past few days there has’nt really been any interesting things to blog about. Yea well, welcome to my world. Boring as usual.
But today, a lil different. Theres this football match between Escape Theme Park and Wild Wild Wet. Taufiq called me to play saying there isn’t much people. What a liar. Theres more than enough! Hmph!
Thing is, I have’nt been playing football on field for like, what? Three years? Yea. So as u can guess.. I suck. As much as they praise me on court, I totally suck in field play. As they can see just a whiel ago. Must have been a shock to them.
Right mid. Way tiring. I can’t even run now. Played like 20 mins and i got subbed =/ . Yea. What the hell was I doing anyway??!! Trying to show off my skills or something?? HELLO?! You cant even trap the ball for goodness sake! FUCK!! That was disappointing. No, it really is.Sigh.
We won anyway. Two to nothing. And I did nothing other than giving teh ball away everytime. Sigh.
Busy.period. part two.
Today’s the day Section 2 Bravo Coy’s gathering that never materialized =X . I can’t blame ‘em. Lets see, Iq, is now a prison warden so that means hes pretty much a busy guy. Ah Teck is a House Agent. Thats a pretty busy job. Well to tell you the truth, everyones busy with their own life now. Where got time for such small gatherings!! The onli dude who isnt busy is me. Yup. I’ve got nothing to do everyday. Getting pretty bored of it. Why am I not working and make myself busy, you ask? Oh Im supposed to be working. But my friend somehow has’nt told me WHEN i’ll be working. Bummer.
Ahhhh… My dream of travelling around the world will go down to nothingness if this continues.. Nooo!! Sigh. Thats the shit right there. Thats life. No wait. Thats MY life. Sigh.
