random darkness
Just another random suicidesArchive for June, 2006
a7x // i won’t see you tonight. part 1.
Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight
Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
all the ones around me,
I cared for and loved
Building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me, you're not the one to place the blame
As bottles called my name, I won't see you tonight
Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
all the ones around me,
I cared for and most of all I loved
but I can't see myself that way
please don't forget me or cry while I'm away
Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight
So far away, I'm gone. Please don't follow me tonight.
And while I'm gone, everything will be alright.
No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight
No more breath inside Essence left my heart tonight
delete.
deleted my friendster account.
why? well im irritated with the friends i had in friendster. its not really their fault. but everytime i scan their profile, seems like something great is happening with their lives while mine just stall. its not fun watching it.
sin and k. happy for ya both.
wow. sin and khairon are attached. wow. what a long overdue relationship. hahas. well somehow im happy for em both. k has been pursuing sin since like lower sec days. gee. how long ago is that. id knew theyd get attached sooner or later. but seeing em cuddling together. its unbelivable. =][=.
sin actually got admitted to hospital.said that its teh same exct flu virus which hit k.hmm. went visiting my best friend and yea. seems fine to me. hahas. sin and k are getting engaged soon. even had a change of name. aamar. even circumsised. that means hes serious about her. hmm. =][=
greenday// haha you’re dead.
How do you get your sleep at night?
How did you get your noose so tight?
Like chewing on tinfoil its so much fun
Gonna be dead before your gone
Coz look how things have gotten
And I'll be happy so I wont pretend
And I'll be cheering that you're going down
And I'll be laughing, I'll be laughing
How many feelings can you steal?
Gotta be part of your appeal
I can see through you cause you're wearing thin
Like chewing on tinfoil once again
Coz look how things have gotten
And I'll be happy so I wont pretend
And I'll be cheering that you're going down
And I'll be laughing
Ha ha you're dead
And I'm so happy
In loving memory
Of your demise
When your ship is going down
I'll go out and paint the town
Ha ha you're dead
Ha ha you're dead
Ha ha you're dead
(ha ha ha)
Ha ha you're dead
And I'm so happy
In loving memory
Of your demise
When your ship is going down
I'll go out and paint the town
Ha ha you're dead
Ha ha you're dead
Ha ha you're dead
Ha ha you're dead
The joke is over
You were an asshole
And now you're gone
As your ship is going down
I'll stand by and watch you drown
Ha ha you're dead
Ha ha you're dead
Ha ha you're dead
Ha ha you're dead
You're gonna be dead
Just remember what I said
Ha ha you're dead
Ha ha you're dead
Ha ha you're dead
travel with me.
i fucking wanna travel.and soon too. places i wanna go? hmm.
- hongkong.
- japan.
- korea.
- taiwan.
- china.
yea. gotta get the guys. and more importantly gotta get the monneey. sigh. how much is hongkong? japan and korea is prolly too expensive for me rite now though. taiwan is actually fun though. kinda miss it. not just the city. the jungles as well. go figure. grah.
serious.go hospital.
kinda feel bad for edwin. whacked his leg instead of getting the ball. isnt moving too well. grah. its my fault. to think hes just been whacked by iz-hantu the other day. how ironic it was when he told me he got whacked this morning. gee.
well ull get better. sorry.
reservist.fuck.
reservist. reservist. next month. my first reservist since ord-ed. ahh. why reservist.its too fast. its only been six months. and does that mean i have to cut my hair? its been a painful long time to keep my hair. six months. gee. might as well make a rule– every male citizen in singapore can't be keeping long hair till they ROD. ahhh what fuck.
retarded kicks.
grah. fuck. my custom converse kicks. what have i done??!! it looks way way retarded. way too messy. im gonna have to knock my head on the floor and restart from the ground up. what the hell. what the fuck. fuck the what. sigh.
yawns.
actually had fun today. ular-lah of all places. the one station which i realllly hate. but i had fun today. with crews like jane and clarissa by my side of course. never a dull moment there. [well actually, jane did most of the hardwork and i just act busy.so too was clarissa. =D] teased a few girls. one looked like a P5 kid but was in fact a sec 4 student graduating this year. well good luck to u. and the rest of the bunch looked like sec 4 but was in fact sec 1. gee. big body small age?
was really exhausted though. hadnt slept for like 24hrs due to brazil vs croatia match starting at three am.half asleep during work. thats half the fun working. and y do kids insist on calling us aunties and uncles..? its not like were that old…im only 22. sheesh. well with a team of slackers, i guess it dosent really matter. or so it seems. appearently jane dosent liek to called an auntie. and i do not like to be called an uncle as well. go figure.
pulling an all nighter again. im gonna die soon if i didnt get my sleep. i need my sleep. ill see what i can do.yawns.
lazy.fuck.
fuck. prolly goin back to werk tomorrow. fuck. been real lazy lately. guess bad habits die hard afterall. even after all those stuff i said like getting a permanent job. fuck permanent job. lazzzzzyyyyy. and besides the pay isn't really great. even if i work like everyday, my pay still wont reach the thousand. im so friggin pissed at the friggin fuck ass pay. its fun yes. altho it gets tiring after sometime. and the worst part of all is im getting alot alot alllloooooot tanner. in fact im dark now. fuck.gotta get a new job. with a much higher pay and one that does not include the sun everyday.
got tons of stuff to do. like putting on the finishing touches to the converse shoe that i customed. like trying to get a new job. like watching world cup. ok. thats not really important. but yea. speaking of world cup, japan was nuts losing to pussies. oops. aussies i mean. at one nil and so much to play for. wheres the killer touch. friggin fuck ass. end up losing to three late late goals. serve u right. and usa? juz stick with ur american football. ur pathetic. brazil will prolly trounced on u to nothingness. japan will win as well. go go asia.
oh well. i guess for now ill just keep on sighing. friggin fuck ass.
