Sigh.. I dunt really know what is happening.Im pretty much confused. It started all so well then suddenly it all came crashing down.Maybe its something that i said, maybe not.But yea, i miss her.. She’s i dunno… feels like shes tryin to avoid me as much as possible.ahh… what am i… im confused….

Sigh.. I dunt really know what is happening.Im pretty much confused. It started all so well then suddenly it all came crashing down.Maybe its something that i said, maybe not.But yea, i miss her.. She’s i dunno… feels like shes tryin to avoid me as much as possible.ahh… what am i… im confused….

Haix.. Im doin my guard duty with a super irritatin imbecile who is super low on self esteem.. I hate havin conversation wit him.. Keeps on thinking wat ppl mite sae to him.bleah… sigh.. why do i keep on bumping into these kinda aliens… man… and damn it all.. hes a poser for goodness sake.. i mean yea sure i like hip hop… and stuff.. but i certainly DO NOT imitate the style of the rappers like he does!!sheesh…

Sometimes i wonder wat it really means wen we said, ”we’ll be there for each other”.. Sometimes i feel lyk those werds were juz meant to give hope.. To relieve of someones pain. But what if tat person already had someone in mind and ure not included? Den will hope turned into hypocrisy? I dunno.. Feelin kinda weird eversince i got discharged from e hospital.. Its lyk as though something very important’s missing from all of these.. But i juz cant think of any rite nw..
Feels lyk im mixed up..haix..

was down with flu today.. but thats no surprise.. im a walkin flu virus.. heh… well anywae.. today the downpour was like the wholeday.. terrible… yea..
besides that.. the Prime minister came over to punggol and well there are fun and games to celebrate his coming
the interesting part was watching the gerls playing street soccer.hmm.. I dint know there were gerls here who play street soccer .kinda good i have to say.but of coz most of them are butches.. and they looked ugly.. haha.. but the real gerls do look nice tho… and now im sounding like a pervert.. which i am not by the wae..
they could give we guys a run for the money..yea rite.. haha.. but they are good tho.. i respect

FUCK U FUCK THEM FUCK THIS FUCK THAT

what is these?
are they just toying,playing with me?
am i now just a toy to them?
a chess piece in a chess game?
well,fuck u,fuck them
fuck ur uncle sam
my life isnt what it used to be
its juz isnt the same
damn them
for toying with me
for playing with my heart
i can see now
all u wanted to do was to be apart
and not be a part of me
i thought this was it,destiny
i thought i finally cld be happy
but sad to say,
happy just isnt the rite werd
it never ever occured
to me that id get kicked out by ur boot
oh shoot
now wat?
wat now?
fuck this fuck that
all u ever care was the stats!
wat am i to u
who am i to u
i wanted to know juz what the fuck i mean to u
u can say this say that
but its all excuses u made up
u never wanted let me know
that u fucked up
the whole show
juz when i tot things were goin rite for me
and then suddenly
i get to see
the big picture
u were juz using me
ur feelings for me were
never for the future
its juz temporary relief
im a substitute,a reliever
im never goin to believe you
ever again
all the pain inside
im having a hard time keeping u by my side
know wat
u can just die!!
my feelings for u just died!

THE END

the above mentioned isnt true at all.its juz freestylin shit that i wrote.if i offended anyone or anthing im sorry.
and if anybody thinks that maeb im talkin abt him/her then theyre wrong. lyk i said its juz freestylin shit.
and thats abt it…
sayonaras…

For u id cross e werld
fo u id do anythin
pls b my gerl ure my gem,
my diamond,my pearl.
ure special to me.
its a miracle to know ya
its destiny
and now i want to b ur protector,
ur lifesaver,
ur lover ur knight in shining armour.
ill luv u forever,
together well b frens.
forever till e end.
Juz wanna c ur face tats wat i want to embrace.
ill keep my promise to you.
ive prayed my whole life fo smone lyk u.
thank god ive finally found u.
Ure an angel in disguise,
a princess…in my eyes….

damn..thats crappy… haix… cant seem to put the rite werds nowadaes… used to be able to freestyle with ease… hmm cant do that anymore i guess… well… yea..

haha crap.. finally confessed to her that i like her.dosent seem good.the confessions probably shocked her. haix that is why i hate to confessed to someone.becoz i dunt lyk the feeling of awkwardness betwwen us. probably should have realised sooner that friends and relationship dunt mix. felt like a dork rite now. but im not regretting my decision to confess. maybe i was abit too uprite. but that is how i am. how or when the feelings started..im not really sure?was it late last year?was it this year?when was it?i cant remember.well the truth is i cant remember much.my memory span is abit short. but my heart has spoken.i like her and thats abt it. im ok if she dosent like me. but itll be bad if she stops talkin to me altogether.mayb she thought im a freak?haah.. sigh..hopefully she dosent think taht way abt me… well as long as were still good friends im happy with it. ahahx….. well yea…… sigh…
i dunt like this feeling at all………

haha crap.. finally confessed to her that i like her.dosent seem good.the confessions probably shocked her. haix that is why i hate to confessed to someone.becoz i dunt lyk the feeling of awkwardness betwwen us. probably should have realised sooner that friends and relationship dunt mix. felt like a dork rite now. but im not regretting my decision to confess. maybe i was abit too uprite. but that is how i am. how or when the feelings started..im not really sure?was it late last year?was it this year?when was it?i cant remember.well the truth is i cant remember much.my memory span is abit short. but my heart has spoken.i like her and thats abt it. im ok if she dosent like me. but itll be bad if she stops talkin to me altogether.mayb she thought im a freak?haah.. sigh..hopefully she dosent think taht way abt me… well as long as were still good friends im happy with it. ahahx….. well yea…… sigh…
i dunt like this feeling at all………

haha crap.. finally confessed to her that i like her.dosent seem good.the confessions probably shocked her. haix that is why i hate to confessed to someone.becoz i dunt lyk the feeling of awkwardness betwwen us. probably should have realised sooner that friends and relationship dunt mix. felt like a dork rite now. but im not regretting my decision to confess. maybe i was abit too uprite. but that is how i am. how or when the feelings started..im not really sure?was it late last year?was it this year?when was it?i cant remember.well the truth is i cant remember much.my memory span is abit short. but my heart has spoken.i like her and thats abt it. im ok if she dosent like me. but itll be bad if she stops talkin to me altogether.mayb she thought im a freak?haah.. sigh..hopefully she dosent think taht way abt me… well as long as were still good friends im happy with it. ahahx….. well yea…… sigh…
i dunt like this feeling at all………